This is the only time I would consider myself brave: talking about my past. I've wavered around this topic for so long but it was time. I'm letting just a few walls down to finally talk...

This is the REAL me. This is who I am, why I am this way, why I do what I do and why I developed DID. I did not go into extensive detailed scenarios (I'm not ready yet) but I hope this will help people understand when I talk about things, and also help people realize the other reason why I became friends with Cecilia Steyn too.

I tried so hard not to cry through this recording...

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The scenario with Zak Valentine faking his death, and Cecilia Steyn being the sole beneficiary, wasn't the only scenario like this. No one was safe. Each person's life was a means to an end. If you couldn't benefit Cecilia Steyn while you were alive, then she would make sure that your death would still ultimately benefit her.

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Since 2012, there was no evidence leading to who had committed Reginald Bendixen's murder, even though the evidence was actually in "plain sight". He was murdered all because of one main reason...

RIP beloved mentor and friend, Reginald Bendixen. 

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There was no limit to the extreme lies and vast amounts of evidence, from Cecilia Steyn, for the claims she had over her life and the things that happened to her... even her own family was used as a means to fool people... and even if it meant self-inflicted abuse too.

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With a count of over 40 murders by the Krugersdorp Killers, there was a lot of confusion and speculation as to why the murders were done so differently and, even more so, with regards to the victims themselves. Why were the murders done so differently and how were the victims selected?

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In this episode, my guest, Candice Rijavec & I discuss the South African Horror series recently released "Dead Places and Horror on Netflix" in a fun & organic way. 

Tune in to hear us go over our reviews of this terrifically terrifying new Horror series on Netflix as well as the Horror genre on Netflix content currently. We debate over the main themes of horror & while giving you our top picks on Netflix right now!

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Classic moments including impersonating the scary sound from The Ring... TWICE! And how Dennis started his career as our ghost butler.

 

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As far as I know, this boy's murder was not mentioned during the Krugersdorp Killers trial.

This boy had known Cecilia Steyn since he was very, very young. He grew up knowing Cecilia... he saw her as a safe person... he trusted her... he saw her as a "friend"... but he was killed in an extremely gruesome way, all because he wanted to live a normal life. He was not part of her group and he was not deemed as a threat... he just, merely, did not "do as told"... even as simple as it was.

This is the reality of the fear that runs through the minds of those who knew Cecilia Steyn; the few who are left and are in hiding. They know more and most wanted to expose her.

(Names and more extensive details of this boy's murder are withheld out of respect for his family and loved ones.)

Sensitive murder photo can be found here: 
www.krugersdorpkillers.co.za

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The truthful moment, between Ria and myself, about the lies Cecilia Steyn was leading us all to believe… leading to Cecilia becoming incredibly paranoid and violently threatening and, ultimately, escalating her drama and control over Ria… Ria was DESPERATE to break away and flee for her life, but she was trapped, with no means of escape…

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Amidst talking about Cecilia Steyn and the rest of the Krugersdorp Killers, I often withheld saying certain things. This is a somewhat sensitive topic for me, mostly because of how it makes me furiously angry with people who falsely claim to have DID and exaggerate it, and then use it to get away with... well, in this case, murder.

DID saved my own life. It DOES NOT kill lives!

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The countless scenarios regarding Cecilia Steyn's werewolf bloodline... her transformation... the fangs... the dangers...  the "evidence"... Cecilia, a proud mother of her werewolf daughter's fangs... and my confession about seeing Cecilia as a werewolf. 

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From howling and growling... to walking on all fours and eating out of a bowl like an animal, I witnessed Cecilia Steyn train her daughter to be a wolf... after all, being a werewolf was in their bloodline.

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May 8, 2021

Sex With The Devil

Since becoming the bride of satan, sex with him was a regular event, no matter whether he took on human form or his natural demonic form... until Cecilia Steyn left the occult, to where satan would then repeatedly rape her... even when we were in the room with her. 

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Cecilia Steyn's birth was prophesied about for years... to then be born into the occult, to endure the abuse, the training, have specifically structured DID systems, to inherit supernatural abilities, to commit murders, and to be married to satan during an occult ritual... all with the purpose for opening the gates of hell on Earth.

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A group formed for the SOLE intention of helping rescue occult victims, ultimately used to brainwash, control and to "do as told without question" ... without Cecilia Steyn being able to be directly linked or held responsible IF and WHEN anything ever goes wrong.

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It was dangerous being a woman around Cecilia Steyn... resulting in complications, arguments and attacks... but more so, it entailed devastating consequences for Marcel Steyn.

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Answering the question: Could it be demon possession? Having personally witnessed pure demon possession before... including feedback from those who also have... and some even having previously been demon possessed before themselves... then comparing all of this to everything I have witnessed with Cecilia Steyn. Did "the devil make her do it"?

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With all the bizarre events regarding Cecilia Steyn and astralling... and with how Cecilia Steyn would victimize animals... and with the extremes Cecilia Steyn would go to in order to manipulate and control people... Was she the one who killed my cat?

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Please brace yourself if you listen to this! Cecilia Steyn's sadistic methods and tactics for controlling her group, and anyone she met, REGULARLY involved victimizing animals... to gut wrenching extremes.

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Answering the questions... what is DID, how is it developed and how does it function? ... and trying to answer as simply as possible. The brain, itself, is very intriguing, especially when you start diving into DID... but ultimately, a life-saving capability.

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Cecilia Steyn's claims on having DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder); taking a LITERAL life-saving disorder and turning it into a complete psycho "freak show". The EXTREME nonsense that she fabricated, to EVERY extreme.... and a major shock-factor as to how far she took it to. 

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This lie, by far, was the most ridiculous of all... yet, we all completely believed it. How could you not, after witnessing the most mind boggling "demonic" seeming kind of event, right in front of you? It was "too unnatural" for the lie to not be true.

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Of all the lies that Cecilia Steyn had ever told, this one was the MOST dramatic attempt that she had ever gone to, in trying to get people to believe all her lies. How could you not believe it? It was LEGITIMATELY REAL blood...

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Another scenario recalled, regarding Cecilia Steyn and astralling events. Did she astral? Or how did she know? The scale of "proven-true" events was starting to outweigh the "unproven" claims that she had over her life... ultimately, leaving you confused and starting to believe the lies.

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April 15, 2021

Reminders Why

My last stop in Krugersdorp was to walk around the mall. Packed with people. Person after person catching my attention... gut wrenching thoughts running through my mind... and every person being a reminder of why I am doing this.

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April 14, 2021

Photos Were Forbidden

You won't find photos of Cecilia Steyn (and those from her group) from before they were arrested. There is only one reason but it is not a reason you could ever imagine... a "spiderweb link" of nonsense.

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The lie that built the foundation for Marinda Steyn's allegiance to Cecilia Steyn; the truth that would set it all crumbling down... and, possibly, get Marinda Steyn to confess even more about what Cecilia Steyn had done. The disturbing obsession that led to undying loyalty, all because Cecilia Steyn was the closest Marinda Steyn had to the "tangible lie".

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With the Cemetery and the Prison, in Krugersdorp, Cecilia Steyn would tell me numerous stories about what would happen at these places. Sick. Twisted. Sadistic. Yet, also a total contrast in these stories... Some of which later on ended up becoming the truth.

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After having left the cemetery and prison, in Krugersdorp, an interesting question or thought posed itself in my mind... 

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Two of the "usual" trips that Cecilia Steyn would take me on, when I would visit her, was to the Cemetery and the Prison in Krugersdorp; each having their own stories about them... stories of what Cecilia had apparently been part of in her supposed occult past.

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Answering the question about when I legitimately knew that Cecilia Steyn was committing murders, along with the other crimes. The puzzle pieces of what I knew during our friendship, versus the truth that finally came out years later.

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April 7, 2021

The Unmentioned Murders

Answering the question about what will happen regarding the murders that were not mentioned during the trial when Cecilia Steyn and her group had been sentenced.

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There were countless methods as to how Cecilia Steyn would brainwash people; movies was a major method used... to numb you out, to make you believe her claims of her occult upbringing and to scare you. There was only one movie that Cecilia Steyn FINALLY managed to scare me with... and still to this day, even knowing the truth, I still feel the exact same extreme fear run through me as it did back when Cecilia had fooled me. 

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Within the first 2-3 weeks of knowing Cecilia Steyn, I experienced a scenario that baffled me for a very long time.  Cecilia Steyn was on a mission to rescue Andrea before Halloween, to save her from being killed. The events that were related were overwhelming, yet confusing. They were so realistic, yet exaggerated... despite the confusion and questions in my mind, no one dared contradict what Cecilia Steyn said happened... but looking back now, I know why no one ever said that the whole scenario never actually happened... even though others had gone with Cecilia Steyn to help rescue Andrea, in the middle of an occult ritual.

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In finding out about Lizette's existence, I couldn't help but question another person I kept hearing of in the first 2-3 weeks of knowing Cecilia... Andrea. Was she real? Yes! But like my questions regarding Lizette: where is Andrea and is she in hiding because she is guilty or because she found out the truth of Cecilia Steyn and feared for her life?

A disturbing memory that I now know is legitimate, or at least from a legitimate person... and yet again, someone who was helping Cecilia Steyn fool people.

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Dumbfounded, yet not surprised in finding out Lizette actually exists... that she is real, unlike the numerous people Cecilia Steyn fabricated. Disturbing thoughts: Where is she and is she in hiding because she is guilty or because she found out the truth of Cecilia Steyn and feared for her life?

The "famous" hotel in Krugersdorp that Cecilia Steyn used too often... to hide real people, fabricated people and possibly her victims that were later killed. Bizarre exaggerated "movie like" scenarios occurred at this hotel, especially regarding Lizette.

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Incase you missed it, the podcast for my live interview with 93.6fm Radio Helderberg about Cecilia Steyn.

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Everyone in Cecilia Steyn's group was well aware of her supposed boundaries set by the occult. She was "never able" to travel outside of them because she would ultimately stop breathing and die. This is the first time I was outside of the boundaries with Cecilia Steyn... without her even realizing it... until I mentioned it.

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February 16, 2021

The Doctor That Was Confused

Just one of the many doctors that we were all led to believe that attended to Cecilia Steyn's severe heart and lung problems... however, this specific doctor was definitely confused with any "issues" regarding that.

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Visiting these doctors' rooms was an almost weekly event. What should be a "normal" trip to a doctor, was definitely never the case with Cecilia Steyn. 

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A place of rest and tranquility for most; a place that Cecilia Steyn would often use to fool us into believing her lies when it came to her supposed attacks from the occult on "high days".

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This street, in Krugersdorp, was one that Cecilia Steyn had taken me to so many times during our supposed friendship. Little did I know was that I was watching the mastermind in action, carrying out just one of her fool proof methods that was ultimately one of the main things that kept us believing her lies about her horrid health status and supposed claims for being attacked by the occult.

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A place that so many people visit daily; a place that was held as the "boundary point" for those in Cecilia Steyn's group... and added, for me personally, it was supposedly the "knowing" of Cecilia Steyn when I was on my way to see her. Again the questions come up... was it astralling? Or how did she know?

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As I began my trip to Krugersdorp, memory after memory came flooding back to me. This was the first memory that hit me; a scenario that was both dreadful to witness and left me with questions in my mind...  was it astralling... or how on earth could Cecilia Steyn know?

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The "weird and bizarre" moments kept extending regarding astralling topics with Cecilia Steyn... which still keep me wondering if they were just dreams or if they were real, yet it is impossible for me to deny them... especially with the vast amount of extreme evidence... and the bigger question being, "Was Cecilia Steyn trying to kill me while I was her friend?" ... Except now, in what I relate, God was obviously kept stepping in to save me...

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Looking back to the trial, seeing how much Marinda Steyn and her kids had changed both in physical appearance and in behavior, I can see that Cecilia Steyn had implemented the same basic methods for stealing a person's identity, and more than likely with Cecilia Steyn having given the same reasons for doing so. The only difference being, Cecilia Steyn had managed to achieve this entirely with Marinda and her kids; not entirely with me, while I was still friends with her.

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February 10, 2021

Who Am I? (Part 2)

After so many messages and comments, since posting the podcasts, I started to see why people need/want to know more about who I am as a person, especially since I was connected to Cecilia Steyn and the rest of the Krugersdorp Killers.

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Record. Pause. Heart Racing. Tears welling up. Lump in my throat. Record. Pause. Sobbing my eyes out. Delete... Try again...

Talking about all of these things regarding Cecilia Steyn is far harder for me than I let people realize. 

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This is something that was never talked about before, at least not publicly. The terrifying fact that there were and possibly still hitmen out there doing Cecilia Steyn's biddings. This whole story is very far from over...

(This is another reason why I choose to speak up... in the hopes of preserving lives.)

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The non-stop warning dreams I had each time I slept, warning me about Cecilia Steyn... as well as with being constantly bombarded with all the nonsense from Cecilia, this nonsense also entered my dreams... A war began between my dreams vs reality... were dreams "reality" and reality "non-reality"?

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The disturbing scenario where Cecilia Steyn talked excitedly and extensively about Hitler and his mind control techniques... in extreme detail. Little did I know that her over excitement about this topic was more than likely because she was able to use mind control techniques on every member of her group... "to do as told, without question or hesitation"...

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